It's hard to be a Mommy....

I've decided it's just plain hard to be a mommy. These past two weeks have really been my hardest yet, I believe. I had the week of Christmas off work and then worked from home the next week. The girls were out of school the same two weeks. While it was a blessing to get to spend some good time with them, it was also very exhausting.

I tend to hit a wall about every 4 or 5 months with everything that I do.....school, work, mom, wife, etc. Here's what happens....I'll just get very stressed and overwhelmed with every little thing all of a sudden. Usually, I just need a day or two of "me" time to refresh and restore and I'm okay. The problem this time was I hit that wall around December 14th after I had just finished finals and completed a big project for work and was heading into a slow time at work. I was looking forward to my break from school and work. But I never quite got the opportunity to refresh because the girls were on break too. Now, we all start back to work and school tomorrow and the vicious cycle starts all over again. I just can't seem to get over the hump!

Don't get me wrong, I love my girls more than anything in the whole world, but they are difficult sometimes. I'm basically the only one responsible for getting all three of us out the door every morning and 4 out of 5 days, I'm responsible for picking the girls up and getting them home. I'm really not complaining.....I chose this life and appreciate it very much because it allows us to save money and allows me to be an involved mommy. I'm just saying that it's hard sometimes.

I feel like a bad mommy when I say anything about how I'm overwhelmed. I know I'm short with the girls when I'm at the wall and I'm not as encouraging. I'm grouchy to my husband and other people. I feel like I should be able to handle every little thing that comes at me without a single complaint or sour attitude. BUT, sometimes, it's HARD!! Sometimes, I want to scream and yell and literally run away! I want to lock myself in a sound-proof room with chocolate ice cream and a T.V. I'm just saying it's hard sometimes.

I'm very aware of the situation God has blessed me with. I'm very aware of the wonderful angels God has blessed me with that help me out with the girls when I need it. I'm very aware I'm not the only Mom who gets stressed out sometimes.............I'm also VERY aware of how blessed I am to have been chosen by GOD to be Madelyn and Meredith's mommy! I thank him every day! It's just hard to be a Mommy sometimes, but I wouldn't change it for anything!